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Memories cannot be drawn apart
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Date: Thu.11/26/09
Time: 1:20 A.M. Mood: 
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Whoops. I missed blogging on my bday. heehee. but that's ok. because this will make up for it now.
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thank youus. for sending me bday greetings today.
and thank you roomies, for surprising me with a yummy purple snowflake cake last night. And there were 5 snowflake ring decorations on it, one for each of us.
and today i got gray skies, darkness, and rain. thanks.
and really. that's about it for my birthday this year.
ew. 20.
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Date: Mon.11/23/09
Time: 3:08 P.M. Mood:
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If you want him to be strong, then you have to be stronger. If you want him to fight the pain, then you have to fight harder. If you want him to make it through, then you have to push yourself even more.
If you want to live through it, then you have to eat sleep and breathe.... eventually.
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i broke my heart for you. so can you pick up the pieces and put it all back together?
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Date: Sun.11/22/09
Time: 9:40 P.M. Mood:
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THE GOOD PART
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Update: This part has been covered in December 6's blog
Saturday's events will be added in later.
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THE BAD PART
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pain pain pain pain pain and more pain. i have nothing more to give because everything feels broken already. i asked for guidance but instead i got the worst that could happen. i would break my heart to give you what you deserve. i would give up the world to take you out of your misery. why has the gun been placed in my hands.
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再給我兩分鐘
Please give me two more minutes
讓我把記憶結成冰
Let me freeze these memories forever
別融化了眼淚
Don't let your tears fall
你妝都花了
Smudging your makeup
要我怎麼記得
How can I remember?
記得你叫我忘了吧
I remember you told me to forget
記得你叫我忘了吧
I remember you told me to forget
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愛是不是不開口才珍貴
Is love more precious when it is kept in the heart?
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Date: Sat.11/14/09
Time: 12:46 A.M. Mood: 
FAITH. |
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If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me.
Deuteronomy 4:29
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I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love.
Romans 8:31-32
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And nothing will ever separate you from my love again.
Romans 8:38-39
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Because I love you with an everlasting love.
Jeremiah 31:3
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I am waiting for you.
Luke 15:11-32
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And I have placed myself in Your hands so that You can take over now. Because I am trying so hard yet still getting nowhere. So I am putting my complete trust and faith in You because I believe that only You know where I belong and I will be guided there by You. For the path You create for me is the path I will follow today. Please take me with all your Love.
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Date: Tue.11/10/09
Time: 2:31 A.M. Mood:
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When stuff breaks, it always breaks into a million little pieces. And it shatters and you watch the pieces just go all over the place... so much that you can't even find them anymore. And it's like... indescribable. Cuz broken things are always painful. Each lil piece cuts you and makes you bleed. The pieces don't go away but you feel like it doesn't really exist at all cuz it's all broken up anyways.
So make sure to take care and not break stuff. Cuz you can never properly fix broken stuff... so it's sorta like gone... forever.
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Date: Sun.11/8/09
Time: 9:31 P.M. Mood: 
whaaat? |
Sickness is the most uncool thing in the world =(. So I've been sick for like a week now and it started off kinda bad. I was like having a temperature change from sweatingly hot to shivery cold every 5 minutes for like 2 days... but ppl said my forehead wasn't hot enough to be considered a fever. All i remember was sleeping, eating, drinking hot water, peeing a lot, then the cycle repeats for like so many days in a row @_@. Skipped all my classes and lab for the last week but now I caught up a bit in the courses that I'd actually bother to catch up in =P. I didn't go out for like 5 days straight but I finally got to go out on Sat when the guyz came into loo to play bballl. I watched them ball for like 6 hours =P which is like the longest everrr but it was hawt =D. And the weatherr that day was amazingggness compared to what i've been seeing for like... forever. Anddd after dinner we chilled until like lateee at stephen/cherry/jen/dennis' place, which is actually realli nice but waaay too far without a car. Andd i didn't get much sleep cuz the guyz were leaving like super earlie this morning so I had to wake up and make breakfastttt. And i did work todaay to catch up on my labs cuz my partner isn't helpful at all =\. Andddd there's nothing else special... except for the fact that I added a link cuz SOMETHING SPECIAL IS COMING UP. RITE? omg rite rite? ohh i'm excited but i don't know whyy =( it'll prob go awaaay soon and i just hope I"M NOT SICK NEMORE. CUZ SICKNESS REALLY SUCKS =(. make the sickness go awwaaay *sobb*
he.loves.me.♥.he.loves.me.not?
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Date: Sun.11/1/09
Time: 2:27 A.M. Mood: 
AHHHH! |
SCREEEMERS. Went to Screemers for this year's halloweeen with an awesome groupie of bakawaiis & other coolies (the cool ppl xD). Bahahaha. it was fuun. xD. I ACTUALLY WASN"T AS SCARED AS WONDERLAND LAST YEAR. but i was still pretty freaked in anticipation. But it turned out that most of them weren't as scary as i thought they would be YAY. Not a lot of bloody gory stuff in the ones I went to. But i still screamed a lot CUZ I"M LIKE THAT. AHHHHH. IT MAKES ME FEEL BETTER TO SCREAM AND TALK AND SAY RANDOM THINGS TO MYSELF... CUZ I'M WEIRD LIKE THAT =(. And so jokes. We went on this spinny ride thing where i was squished on the side by Jacky cuz of the stupid inwards pulll of the ride -_-. SO I KEPT SCREAMING AND TALKING AND SAYING ALL THESE RANDOM THINGS. like "MY HAIR FEELS LIKE IT"S GONNA GET CAUGHT ON SOMETHING! AHH I"M SQUISHED! AHHH I"M DIZZY! AHH WHEN"S IT GONNA STOP??! AHH THE WIND IN MY FACE!" AND LOLL. Someone THREW A NEW PACK OF JUICY FRUIT GUM AT ME ROFL!!!! I was on the ride and something hit my leg and i was like JACKY WHAT WAS THAT DID WE DROP SOMETHING? and he was like "someone threw something at us i think." THEN I SAW IT AT THE BOTTOM OF THE RIDE CART THINGY AND I TRIED TO REACH FOR IT... but my arms were too short over the stupid barrier thing. I MUST'VE LOOKED LIKE A RETARD ON THAT RIDE XD. BUT IT'S ALL COOL CUZ RETARDED PPL GET FREE FOOD. WOOT. LOL. so yea. i picked up the free food at the end before i got off the ride xD. Then another ride was weird and spinny too and I fell on the floor at the end of it LOL. soooo it was a fun halloweeen =D I like going with big groups to these things cuz it makes me less scared and it's funnier. BAHA BAHA. Hmm. what else. DINNER DOWNTOWN WAS GOOD. i had this big sundae for dessert and ate up lots of fatness. mwaap. and i drew this crazy design on my face today that ended up getitng smudged out =( oh wells. GOOD BREAK AFTER MIDTERMS. midterms were hell. so full of hell. so this weekend was totally awesome and made up for it =D. NOW I BE SUPER TIRED AND SHOULD GO TO SLEEEPNESS. hope i don't get nightmares tonight.. but i shouldn't cuz i actually didn't see any gory freaky stuff. wooot! gnite & happie halloween-ess >=D bwahaha.
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Date: Sun.10/11/09
Time: 1:31 P.M. Mood: 
hatesLIFE |
this is why i hate being home. this is why thanksgiving should never exist in my life. because parents are fucking dumbshits who don't understand a thing about me, my friends, and the current society.
i wish i could kill myself right now so i could be reborn. I wish people had no mouths so nobody could talk about stupid and retarded things. Better yet, i wish i was deaf so i wouldn't hear any stupid and retarded things that parents accuse me of. I GET HEADACHES AND NOW I CAN"T STUDY BECAUSE OF YOU. DUMBFUCKS. as if i needed any more discouragement in my life right now.
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EDIT @2:14PM :
I can't believe i have to resort to 1337 speak and sublimal msgs in my msn name now cuz they make me talk to them on MSN and they see my names. AND THEY FRIGGIN ASK ME ABOUT EVERY LITTLE THING WHILE I"M AT LOO. HELL. WHAT DOES THIS MEAN? WHAT DOES THAT MEAN IN UR NAME. ARE YOU SAD? ARE YOU SICK? HDKFJHDKFH WTF. this is stupid. STOOOPID. can't even express myself normally.
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